《身心俱疲》是我第一个根据主题写出来的专场。
这件事又喜又悲。悲的是这一两年我一直在各种受伤，肉体上心灵上都是。专场里讲了我的膝盖受伤、耳朵受伤、社会性死亡、双相情感障碍......
喜的是，这是我的七个专场里最快写完，段子风格最一致的专场。
这几年我的变化很大，最大的一个变化就是我在网上一直传段子。所有我认为不应该放进专场的段子全都传了，这就导致我虽然有七个专场，但网上其实有一两个小时的内容不在任何专场里。这背后的根本原因可能是我心中的挣扎和不甘。
这也是为什么这个专场一开始想叫《身心巨皮》。意思是肉体和心灵虽然饱受伤害，但精神仍然很皮实。这也是我一直以来做单口喜剧的内核。谁不是在伤痛中变得皮实，来面对人生更多的伤痛。改为《身心俱疲》的原因很简单，「身心巨皮」这四个字，不知道为什么，看着像是个恐怖片。
入行时我并不知道，有七个专场会是什么样子。 现在想想，幸亏不知道。要是知道了即使有七个专场还是这个样子，怕是早就颓了。现在还好，疲了而已。
剧场见！
Exhausted physically and mentally is the first special I’ve ever written with a clear theme from the very beginning.
That alone feels both joyful and a little sad.
The sad part is over the past couple of years; I’ve been getting hurt in all kinds of ways—physically and mentally. In this special, I talk about my knee injury, my ear injury, my moments of social death, my bipolar disorder… all of it.
The joyful part is among my seven specials, this was the fastest one to complete, and the one with the most consistent tone.
I’ve changed a lot in recent years. The biggest change is probably that I’ve been posting jokes online nonstop. Anything I felt didn’t belong in a special, I just uploaded. So even though I have seven full specials, there are still one to two hours of material online that aren’t included in any of them. The root cause, I think, is my own inner struggle—and a stubborn unwillingness to let go.
This is also why I originally wanted to call the show “Mind & Body, Super Thick-Skinned.” The idea was: even when the body and the mind are worn down, the spirit stays tough. That has always been the core of my stand-up. After all, who isn’t toughened by pain, just to face even more pain in life? But eventually I changed the title to
Exhausted physically and mentally. Because for some reason, “Mind & Body, Super Thick-Skinned” looked oddly like the title of a horror film.
When I first started doing stand-up, I had no idea what having seven specials would feel like.
Looking back, maybe that’s a good thing. If I had known that even after seven specials, I’d still end up like this, I probably would've burned out long ago. Fortunately, at least for now, I’m just… exhausted.
See you at the show.